Wednesday, April 4, 2012

In my mind



[garden - just before our tomatoes stopped producing from the heat. this is my sacred space. growing our food.]



[ellie, along with all of us, has fallen in love with tomatoes. she carries them with her everywhere.]



[a bird's eye view of what little girls do.]



[oh, bella.]





[what moms do when the husbands are watching the kids. get dressed up and take pictures.]



[i didn't know glacier national park was trendy, found this top at target.]



[my beating heart.]



[bella's newest artwork. she constantly amazes me. bottom drawing is from her daddy.]


We've been hunkered down, riding the tumultuousness that is life. Nothing too serious. Just life. Sickness, happiness, job status.

There are ups and downs to not having a television. I don't have the opportunity to check out, so my mind is always on. We've said time and time again that we love not having it. But then, there is no opportunity for my mind to check out, so it IS always on. It can be exhausting at times. I think this is just my personality. Dealing in real life circumstances rather than letting my mind wander to not real life. Maybe a little respite from the real world indulging in a little book now and again would do me some good.

I think this is just where life is for us right now. Constantly living on the edge.. stress eats at the edges of me and I'm constantly trying to breathe through it. Yoga has really been amazing for me, my body loves it, my mind loves it. My phrase that I've been repeating to myself lately is, "Anger makes nothing better." Simple and straightforward, it really clicked with me a few weeks back. Whenever I want to be angry about something, especially something silly, I choose another emotion instead... I feel like it's allowed me to love more deeply. Actually learning these life lessons and not just reading a verse has deepened my spirituality. I feel it, I know it, I live it.

Some lovely moments we've had lately: trips to the beach, chalk drawing, wandering through the garden, snuggles, laughter, good food, slowness.

I'm ready for a journey.








 

9 comments:

  1. Beautiful post & beautiful pictures!
    I love the tiny hands with tiny tomatos!
    And you are lovely :)

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    1. Thank you Jamie :) You are more lovely :)

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  2. so nice to see a post! your hair is so beautiful betsy. i love that ellie carries tomatoes around, how precious! and bella looks so big! i wish i could take all your stresses away. my check out is pinterest. james checks out with the tv. i think your yoga journey has been such a good thing for you. i cant believe how far behind ive fallen with it. but im okay with it, ill get back on board, i always do eventually. ive gone from crazy sadness/slugishness to wild spring creative fever! i think a good book would do you some good. i like to read in the bathtub. maybe after the girls go to bed, right before bed you could snuggle up in the hot tub with a good book for half an hour. love you!!!

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    1. You haven't fallen behind, love, just taken another route! I'm thinking of doing another whole 30 days straight. A bath was exactly what I needed, and I got some books to check out with :) love you!!

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  3. When my husband and I got married, we decided not to have a t.v. After 4 years, I've gotten used to it, but sometimes when I need my brain to fizzle out at the end of the day, I look up the local news online or pick up the bible...then I pass out ;)

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    1. Hehe! I do the same thing to unwind, I think I need to not wind myself up at night and give it a process to relax. I haven't met many other people that don't have a TV, nice to see there are others out there! We haven't had one for almost three years and really don't miss it at all. <3

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  4. Betsy, I wish we lived closer. I could see us really relating to each other!! haha ... What you're saying here really resonates with me... always trying to find that place where we feel like we're more than just coping... that we're actually able to "enjoy" life... well, maybe not enjoy, maybe just not feel like we're on the edge all the time... that's it, life with less "edge". That's what I strive for... the only thing that keeps me sane is being outside and if I don't do that a few times a week then I am grumpy grumpy grumpy.

    And for God's sake, is that GNP shirt at Target RIGHT NOW!?

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    1. I know what you mean! Life with less edge, just a little bit less, I can deal with that, I've been there before, just a little more peace. I'd love to live closer, I like to look at craigslist for houses all the time in NC :) And YES, that shirt is at target right this minute, I couldn't believe it when I found it! They had a few, yosemite, and one for tenting, I was like, are you kidding?! You gotta get one :)

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  5. How sweet is this drawing!
    Oh and yoga is just a lifesaver, isn't it? Sometimes I tell myself it's more luxurious to just stay in bed longer in the morning but every time I kick my butt it's just so good...
    yaga from Shiny Bubbles

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